Ramadhan - Creativity Twenty-Three

Twenty-Three Day

I did quite a few things today. It's 4 am now however, and I have just had a shower. Showers, or any number of things which involve me with moving water, seem to inspire quite a lot out of me, ideas of any medium. Today it's singing, which I recorded in two parts, in the space of about 6 minutes at the start of my shower. I remember over a year ago, jumping out of the shower after coming up with that bassline and the lyrics for the chorus of 'When U see the future' on my 2nd album 'Flowers & Trees'. I immediately hummed it into a microphone and mouthed the rough words before they left my mind. Tonight was of a different sort. I was drained of energy, and I did that wonderful thing where I forget all around me and just sing. This is my version of freestyling. Now, I put myself up there with a lot of good MC's when it comes to skills and lyrics, but I've always been honest about the fact that I just can't freestyle, not in the traditional hip-hop sense with tight beats and rhymes, I'm just not that sharp and quick. But as for these words, sung in melody, it seems to be something I do well. The whole process is a water-diary, evolving and airing out of me. Whatever is hovering on the surface of my mind usually comes out first, then I delve deeper inside myself the more the melody hypnotises me. I have never heard the arabs in the desert who supposedly come up with wonderful melodies whilst walking for days at a time, but I've always imagined that it's the same sort of thing that I do, when I'm alone.

I'm now going to try and transcribe the words I just sung with closed eyes and large emotions. I was about to say 'enjoy' but then, I can't really say that because some creativity is less enjoyable and more, perhaps, interesting. If I were me and I came across this website and heard something like this, interesting is what I'd call it... Incidentally, I have no desires to put these melodies to so-called 'real' songs (if I did then I wouldn't be sharing them with you) the truth is that I do this kind of thing in the shower all the time, and it just so happens that I'm sharing this month, so take it for what it is - I hope they are of some interest. Peace, Y.Misdaq aka Yoshi.

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~~Lyrics~~, no, these are not lyrics. I'll call them water-dust

grow.... grow... grow ... grow.

grow glow blue-light, row,
glow glow black light glow,

glow glow black light, no
no no pictures inside brain
you see me in no pain
i have left you ever so far away
we were speaking one day one day
and my hair was long then but now it's been cut
and i dont know what to say except bad bad words
i been offered no people and those stale cheese faces
those stale cheese faces and those grey grey places
all those things ive seen you know ive been before
all those things ive hated and i love dont get no more

indifference, indifference, indifference,
ambiguous, ambiguous, ambiguous
ambivalence, ambivalence, grey ambivalence, grey ambivalence...

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what do I do?
what do i do what do i do?
what do i do what do i do?
what do i do what do i do?
what do i do what do i do?

when i'm in distant places, what do i do,
when i see distance faces,
what do i do, what do i do?
what do i do, at three in the morning,
what do i do, when i feel just me
what do i do, when i die like elvis presley?
what do i do, i sing, what do i do,
and where do i go?

the soul has left me inside,
left me cold outside,
when my soul has left me cold outside, like,
wilma, wilma, let me in,
with two pints of milk outside my door,
i have a shower in the morning,
but i cant get inside my own house no more,
i cant feel my own body

what do i do what do i do?
what do i do,
when I cant touch
what do i do, when i feel so numb?
what do i do?

i run. i run.

i run.

Y.Misdaq, Ramadhan 23, 1427